"Vision Leakage"
Ps 119: 50
"You have given me hope. You comfort me in my suffering. Your promises preserve my life!"
v 77 "Let Your compassion come to me... so I can I live."

When I think back over my journey through life, I can see Jesus love and mercy. He has given me a hint of hope through the warmer spring weather, but also through little snippets in in His letters of compassion to me. Do I think at times... can I have a "do over" on that one? absolutely! There are moments that I celebrate my walk here on Earth and and times when I live deeply in regret. Actually... this is NOT living a free life. But alas, there are no "do overs".

There is hope! At the very core of my being, I want to live Jesus and bring a source of hope to those I love. Sometimes this can get a little fuzzy. There are times that I get caught up in self righteousness, anger, resentment, and impatience. This is when the loneliness and doubt creep in and consume me. I'm gonna call this a "vision leakage". Keeping the vision of Jesus clear is an on going process. Effectively living as if I can envision the face of Jesus is HUGE!

As artists and human type people, we are given both the blessing and the curse of frequent deadlines. Sunday comes around every week... and we must out put. To put it bluntly, artists and people in general are NOT machines. There is a limit to how much we can produce with innovation joy and health. But discerning where that limit is keeps me learning the hard way. My thought is, real life is the same way. There is a limit to how much discouragement, disappointment and loneliness that one person can process. Realizing that we have a "vision leakage" issue (losing focus of Jesus) can cause us to stop in our tracks, after stubbing our toe on the coffee table first, of course. ouch! As obnoxiously painful as that is, sitting down and chilling is necessary. Am I sitting down in Jesus? Am I losing sight of Who he is because of the pain and loss I am feeling? Am I experiencing "vision leakage"? have we lost sight of His sweet face? He has promised hope for a future. His loving kindness and compassions will not fail.

"Vision leakage"? Are you experiencing it? Be still, my friend... Know He is God. live free!